I rarely cry. I’m not kidding. I probably break down in tears 2 or 3 times a year. I’ve just never been one to cry (probably because I’m an ugly crier). Granted, I avoid sad movies and that horrible Sarah McLachlan commercial with the sad animals, but still. I rarely cry.
As you may know, I’ve had some health issues for about a year and a half and for some reason they continue. I’m not sure if it’s because the universe thinks I can take it, or if this is its way of bitch-slapping me.
It’s probably 50/50.
I take a positive approach to everything and have tried to take this on the chin, but it’s getting kind of difficult. I feel crappy all the time and feel like I’m losing a sense of myself because I’m usually a zombie from the medicines. Lately I’ve felt like if I could cry, I might feel better, but then again, I can’t cry. (See above.)
So today I was feeling especially miserable so I emailed my husband. I didn’t want to talk but wanted to touch base with him as we normally do throughout the day. I told him I was frustrated.
And then he sent me the most perfect email that changed everything. He told me he loved our perfect marriage and our life together, and he told me to watch this.
And just like that, I began to cry. No, I began to wail like a baby.
Every negative thought I had about anything just drifted away. I was laying in bed watching this with Shady Jack at my side staring at me, Max at my feet and Bentley licking my tears away. I thought about how my husband was so thoughtful to say that this song reminded him of me and that he knew I needed this. I needed to cry. I needed to be reminded that things aren’t really that bad.
All of a sudden I realized that my life is amazing. Not because I have a huge house or an enormous diamond (because I don’t). But because I have so many things that are invaluable to me. My dogs, my sweet niece, and my amazing husband. What else did I need?
I realized that what I really needed wasn’t necessarily to cry, but to gain some perspective. The universe wasn’t bitch-slapping me to be mean–it was bitch-slapping me because I needed it. I needed to focus on what’s really important in life. Somehow I got lost along the way worrying about paying the bills and when I’ll be able to return to work.
Yes, those things matter but they don’t matter as much as the love that surrounds me. That’s the real joy and that’s what life is all about.
My mom always says “The best things in life aren’t things.” I’ve always tried to live by that motto, but it’s good to be reminded of it every now and then.
So take a look around you. Not at what you physically have, but at the love that surrounds you. I bet you take it for granted. I know I did. But don’t.
There is nothing more important or precious than those you love, and that should be what gets you through those hard times. It isn’t money to pay the bills or having the newest gadget. It’s who makes you feel good about yourself and who supports you no matter what.
I’m so thankful for the bitch-slap. I needed it. Hopefully this post will bitch-slap you too.
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